i will be sure that the lady is my friend..
& i ever fall so true,
i will be sure that the lady is just like yhu. -Shai.*
So today, i was a little better.
Felt a little stronger.
Ate alot more. =D.
Seriously, everything was fine today BUT my night was crazy.
I have like no guy friends anymore. LOL.
i made malk upset, jon told me to delete his number, & JB fussed me out last night.
the crazy thing about it all is, i really am getting to a point where i don't give a fuck.
let's approach this JB subject - he says i was fuckin mean yesterday cause i chose not to speak to him, like yu have a mouth too. we try talking things out BUT i still feel the same way, & i just REFUSE to be friends with him on the level(S) he's requesting. he says he wants to still be friends, but he wants to prove that me & him are JUST friends to her. NOT being my friend on the days she's not around or whatever isn't proving anything. seriously & when yu work things out yu needa go into the relationship knowing what's what. & being my friend was what's up. or so i thought. but instead yu just don wanna be friends now, but later on down the road yu wanna reconnect?? i'm lost. that's going to cause drama because yur working things out WITHOUT being my friend, so why would yu need me later on down the road?
exactly.
my mommy said she's proud of me for sticking up for myself. =D
but fuck that, i'm proud of myself.
Jon - now where to start with this nigga? he's fine as hell & he's a nice person to hang out with, but i ain't tryna fuck him on some real shit. i'm just tryna get to know him, ya know?
he wanna taste me & some more shit, so i'm like can yu wait? LOL. like yu can't go around just opening yur legs to people, so this nigga told me he was gonna go to the beach with me tonight. he calld a rain check cause his daddy had his car. then texted me at like 1130 talking bouh go over his friend's house. i simply reply with a no. he asks why..i say because im gonna call a rain check, my mommy has my car. this nigga get mad & just motha fuckin tell me to delete his shit. LOL, so i did. whatever.
Malkum - i really love him. when i say i love him, i'm not IN love with him, but i've grown
to love the person that he is. he's real sweet & caring, sometimes. LOL. but anyways, we go out to the beach & we're all boo lovin & all.. we end up messin around, but i catch myself & i stop..he gets mad & don even wanna walk me out to my car..wtf.
i feel like this. if yur fucking another girl. then why yu tryna fuck me?
that shit don fly by with me, at all. i'm noone's plan B, with no guarenttee.
fuck that shit. but anyways,
i'm so damn tired. i'ma hit the blogspot tomorrow morning, let yu know the rest of my night.
-Lewinsky~*
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